To my dear friends: it’s okay to tell people I use marijuana and that it helps with my medical issues. I’m not afraid to admit it and it’s okay if you tell others should they ask for examples of people who use marijuana to assist with their issues.
In a nutshell, in summer of 2006 I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), PTSD, Dysthymia (dysthymic disorder), and dual depression. I went in for a study on depression and, after running through all the prelims, I was told my problems were too complex for the study. I had no idea. It was an eye-opener for sure!
According to mentalhelp.net, “‘Dual’ or ‘Double’ depression is a term used to describe the condition of a person with Dysthymia who also develops a more severe and persistent Major Depressive Episode at the same time. As mentioned previously, dysthymia is a less severe type of depression that involves long-term, chronic symptoms that do not disable, but which do make it difficult to function or feel good. People diagnosed with double depression require aggressive depression treatment not only during the acute Major Depression phase, but also during the chronic low-grade Dysthymia phase that follows in order to try to prevent future occurrences of Major Depressive Episodes. Studies suggest that individuals with double depression often respond well to antidepressants for their Major Depressive Episodes, but that their low-grade dysthymic symptoms may not abate completely. In other words, if you suffer from double depression, medication may relieve your most severe depressive symptoms, but you may not experience periods of feeling completely well.”
So yes, I do smoke weed when I have anxiety attacks or feel like I’m about to have a meltdown. Now, I can tell you that I’m proud of myself for accomplishing what I do, given the fact that I’ve had days when getting out of bed was a major feat. I wouldn’t wish all of this on anybody, BUT if you suffer from any of these conditions, take heart that you CAN still function, even though it’s difficult at times.
Don’t be too hard on yourself (still working on that myself!) and remind people that you DO have these conditions, so people who aren’t struggling with them can learn about them and offer you support and assistance. You are capable, strong, and resilient!
Feel free to message me at any time if you need a boost, okay? I’ve been there and done that. Still fighting it…but winning (or so I believe)! Blessings & love.